"He's a boy in a man's body, trying to be an adult, but his adolescence keeps getting in the way."
Greatest quote ever.
This show reminds me of FRINGE.
Oh, and a close second:
"You don't need all that sub-space chatter."
Or... Spock saying,
"Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary."
...Turned her into an iguana. ...
was tonight, and was awesome.
(I and Rose M.C.eed... Or whatever.)
I'm not ready.
I don't know why.
-What've I done? Accomplished? Changed?
-I know I have, but...
In an Archie comic, one I read, he stands outside the school, the titular character outside of Riverdale High, and he talks to it and tells it that he's... That he's... Sad. That all these years he's planned getting out and leaving, and now... Now when he's face to face with it. (It reminds me of death, somehow. ... Someone clinging, even if they've just... -Harlan Ellison said... I think it was he at least... that everyone wants to live. Even a suicide will still try to fly. That's how we work. ...) He ...
I remember ... making out with Jackie for the first time there, kissing her there, for the first time, sending the letter that... was my wimpy form of... a... of asking out... Walking around school, for days and days, alone... Feeling more peace in those moments than... I ever had... Anywhere. Never had I felt that... belonging, that comfort... than at that school.
I love that Theatre. I saw my first play in it when I was in Kindergarten. ...Pepper Anne, or... Annie, or... Some Raggedy Ann? Something... Like that? ...
I remember auditioning for Creative Writing, and doing my best to avoid auditioning for Drama. (Got out of it, in the end.) Meeting ... David and Rose and Sage and... even... Tiffanie, and Kiana and Karen. And Kaleidoscope and Pagina. ... Remember going to my first K. C. ... Going onstage, reading for the second time. ...
I remember being recommended for that school shortly after my ...um, my guidance counselor read a story in which I had a character kill his parents. -I almost got sent to a psychiatrist. ...My parents said I shouldn't send that story in when I applied to OCSA. ... I did anyway. ...
I remember writing my first play and walking on stage. Falling in love with the theatre. I put on my first play there. Made my first video there.
Damn, the only first thing I don't think I did there was loose my virginity. ... -It's a ... it's full of firsts. ...
I love that school, and... I love that place. ...I love it... And.
There's a spirit there. Things, places, have a spirit, seperate from the people but connected. ...I love OCSA. ...And always will.
I worry for it, for the people coming. ...Pray that it'll still be standing, still be there for a renunion.
...Remembering dancing for the first time there. Remember seeing my ... first musical, ... hee... Godspell. ...
I remember... soo much. And...
I don't want it to end. ...
But it will. ...And...whether corpreal or not... OCSA'll always be there, be a part of... me, and... I hate how... that sounds but. ...
It will be. ...
And I don't know if I'm ready to leave. ...
(But I have to.)
...
I don't know how to feel about this
the dread god Cthulu. (Our dark God: we offer you sacrifice, we offer you blood, we offer you sacrifice.) He will rise, he will rise. He rises.
And he will soak this world with his blood. The grass will spring with the fresh fertilizer of your decaying self, rotting into the ground- all the parts he hasn't picked off and sucked slowly between his suckers.
And that's what you shall feel as you die, if the madness- ah! yes, the madness: the slow decay, and your mind giving way beneath you - does not drive you out of this world and into another first. (And in that other world, may you hope the dread Cthulu is never to rise.)
I offer him sheep and lam and ram and goat.
He offers me wisdom and peace and calm.
In the calamity, in the chaos of his reign.
(For in the dead, he lies; in the deep, he lies,
but after Strange Aeons-
not just any aeons, but strange aeons-
even Death will die.
- Which will be quite weird with decaying skeletons lumbering around; our entire economy will have to adjust to new needs. - If there were to be an economy! - For there shan't. For dead Cthulu rises.)
Bloop. Bloop. Bloop.
It's like a choir hymn.
Bloop. Bloop. Bloop.
His message to his people.
Bloop. Bloop. Bloop.
What has your God ever offered as verification?
Ours has offered
Bloop. Bloop. Bloop,
steady and secure.
Proof, undeniable.
So, we sit and wait
and fate will take
all our worries away;
and fate will take
all our lives away in the end.
He rises, he rises.
From the depths, dread Cthulu rises.
(Hey, some of you worship a Zombie, or a rock that floats a ball of gas, or... like air and shit.
- Don't be judgin'.)
Today was nice.
I laid on Jackie and she on me in a dark lit room and we were together.
And I've said things I've had to say.
And I'm listening to Green Day's "21st Century Breakdown" - http://www.mtv.com/music/the_leak/green_
Today is a good day.
Dull as dirt,
you can't assert
the kind of light
that might persuade a strict dictator to retire
while the army teach the poor orgami.
The truth is in, the proof is when
you hear your heart start asking,
"What's my motivation?"
Try as you may, there's no way to explain
the kinda change
that would an eskimo renounce fur,
that'd make a vegetarian barbeque a hamster,
unless you trace this about-face to a certain sign.
shine
make them wonder what you've got
make them wish that were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men,
let them see good works, and then
let them glorify the lord.
Out of the shaker and onto of the plate
It isn't karma, it sure ain't fate
that would make a deadhead sell his van
that would make a schizophrenic turn in his crayons.
Oprah freaks
and science seeks
the rationale that shall
excuse this strange behavoir.
When you let it shine, you will inspire
the kinda of entire turn around
that will make a bouncer take up ballet,
even bouncer's who are happy.
But out of the glare,
with nowhere to turn,
you ain't gonna learn it on "What's my line?"
shine
make them wonder what you've got
make them wish that were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men,
let them see good works, and then
let them glorify the lord.
Shine, shine, shine.
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.)
Shine, shine, shine.
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.)
shine
make them wonder what you've got
make them wish that were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men,
let them see good works, and then
let them glorify the lord.
shine
make them wonder what you've got
make them wish that were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men,
let them see good works, and then
let them glorify the lord.
shine
make them wonder what you've got
make them wish that were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men,
let them see good works, and then
let them glorify the lord.
Shine.
Don't be there, don't be there
'Cause I'm on my way.
And I'm already gone over
And I'm on my way.
Hey,
I can't recall myself
How I went down.
Did I get shot?
Or shoot myself?
I'm down here, I'm down here.
And you're way up there.
And that doesn't hurt (badly).
But it stings right here.
Hey,
I can't recall myself,
how I went down.
Did I get shot?
or shoot myself?
And I won't pretend there's nothing there.
You'll be around, and I'll be square.
Don't be alarmed if I'm not there.
You be around, and I'll be square.
If you're a rose, then I'm the thorn
that's in your side.
And does it hurt, badly?
'Cause it burns right here.
Hey,
I can't recall myself,
how I went down.
Did I get shot?
Or shoot myself?
I'd like to say, Hello.
I'd like to say I care.
I'd like to let you know
that nothing here's the same with me, nothing here's the same.
I can't recall myself.
How I went down.
Did I get shot,
or shoot myself?
And I won't pretend there's nothing there.
You be around, and I'll be square.
Don't be alarmed if I'm not there.
You be around, and I'll be square.
Don't be around, don't be there.
Don't be there.
But that's a bit... too broad.
The others part.
If you care for them, then doing what they wouldn't want you to do creates conflict.
It means that you two wants: A and B.
And that you're choosing B over A.
So, you're denying yourself A.
Which is alright sometimes. - After all, wouldn't we all rather ... erhm. Go to the movies, rather then Williamson's class?- But the thing is ... you don't. Despite what you think, you actually want to go to Williamson's more, as much as you detest it, because... Because of what it'll bring you. You realize that this is the best course of action, despite how unpleasant it is, and you therefore want to do it.
People never do things they want to do, unless someone has tied them up and is moving their body.
That is the only time a human being does something unwillingly.
All other times, a person does something because they want to.
(Well, of course there are accidents, but... aside from those two. ... And even accidents can sometimes just be you doing what you want to do.)
So, guilt... Guilt is a conflict. Because you want to do two things at the same time. Want to do two things almost equally.
You want to go to school and you don't. Therefore when you don't go to school, for the surface pleasure, for the shallow pleasure, you feel guilty because you denied yourself something that you recognize as a greater want, however one that is not, for the moment at least, a pleasure. But it's still the higher want.
Being guilty isn't irrational. It's a recognition that you're denying yourself something.
And you have to choose: Is it worth it? Is it worth denying myself that higher, fuller thing, for this ... faster, cheaper one.?
So when you feel guilty it's because you are not... being what you want, or doing what you want, or etc. etc.
But it's all about what you want. Not other people. It has nothing to do with how other people will feel, or what's right or wrong, unless that's what you want.
So when you feel guilty, consider:
Why?
What am I denying myself that makes me feel this way?
Is there some... fuller, greater need, want, that I am ... passing up, for this shallower, cheaper one.?
- Ask yourself.
- And for the love of God, don't let what people think about what you're doing affect you.
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun
Will we make a mark,
this time
Will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your heart out
All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set
Will we make a mark,
this time
will we always say we tried
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops
Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found
Standing on the rooftops
Wait until the bombs drop
This is all we got now
Scream until your heart stops
Never gonna regret
Watching every sunset
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
All the love that we found
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your heart out
Scream your..
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your...
so this time
I'll just
Stop
You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not
And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way
My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
It talks, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
"Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes
And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)
I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)
I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)
makedamn sure
--TakingBackSunday
Albino Buffalo:
http://news.aol.com/article/albino-buffa
Gigantic Earliest Form of Existance:
http://news.aol.com/article/space-blob/4
Most Massive Manmade Atom Fuck-The-Worlder Ever
Bullshit Mayan Prophesy (That Isn't Even Correctly Referenced):
... ?
Here's the thing about religion:
about Christianity at least.
The ones who run it... dumb it done, they... make it cheap and dull and a seminar.
They use words that are easy and repetitive.
They use chants and they use acronymons.
They make it unreal.
That is idiotic.
It's not unreal: it's... a relationship. All religion is a belief or a worship with or for something.
But what religion does nowadays is hide from that, it doesn't say There is a God or
a power. It says, "Here, repeat this," or "Here, take this" and always finishes with:
"And you will be healed."
But you will not be healed.
This is real, this is how it works
in real life.
In real life, you struggle and you suffer and you cannot
escape pain or fear:
in real life there is you and there is everything else and
there is whatever you make.
And religion denies that: they deny that this is just
another thing - and it may be
the most important thing, do not
misunderstand, but
that does not mean it is not
just another thing in this world.
They make it words that can be mumbled by an unintelligable crowd at seven in the morning.
Things to be clapped to.
Things to be cheered for and not to.
People to pat you on the back not carry you.
They take the Magic out of it:
They take the power out of it.
There's a shadow just behind me,
shrouding every step I take,
making every promise empty,
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path is must we
just because the Son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?
Why can we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we dream forever?
I just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but the past and done.
Why can we not be sober?
I Just want to start this over.
Why can't we sleep forever?
I Just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave.
Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust Me.
Why can we not be sober?
I Just want to start things over.
Why can't we sleep forever?
I Just want to start this over.
I want what I want.
I want what I want.
I want what I want.
I want what I want.
WE REACH OUT TO REMEMBER
AND YOU CAN TAKE ALL THE PAIN AWAY FROM ME
A KISS AND I WILL SURRENDER
--
self⋅less
| having little or no concern for oneself, esp. with regard to fame, position, money, etc.; unselfish. |
An act can't be described with a noun.
An act is a verb.
(For those wondering about my personal critique, all I have to say is: Dumbass.)
Slipknot
Johnny Cash
Jimi Hendrix
It's so cute. The little person with the green halo floating away from it's head like a radio beam.
It's so desperate, it's like I Exist, I Exist.
Hee.
Cute.
(I sound gay, yes?)
This is the word I meant.
Halcyon (IPA: /ˈhælsiən/), a term that originates from the Greek myth of Alcyone, is used most often to mean golden or marked by peace and prosperity.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Halcyon
